I’ve been waiting for a guide to come and take me by the hand
Could these sensations make me feel the pleasures of a normal man?
These sensations barely interest me for another day
I’ve got the spirit, lose the feeling, take the shock away

Ian Curtis - Disorder

Perhaps a summary of the past two months:
Some people may appear like helpful or in favour of you, but taken at their words they turn out to be just more professional poseurs with decades of practice in society compliant obedience. Should you ever happen to get too close to the edge of nowhere, they will quickly let you know about their priorities. In line of society means transposing the laws of capitalism to everyday’s life, which of course is nothing else but a political correct form of Darwinism. You are not welcome as a human, but as a human resource to deploy, as a commodity, institution, object or vessel for silly prejudices and hatred. Right is not a matter of the better argument, but merely a matter of dependence and abusing it for one’s own end.

There is not really a good reason to live on like nothing ever happened, because it has alway been around like this. Perhaps one was lucky to be spared, not to come into someone else’s crosshairs, but that alone does not make the world a better place. Nor does it mean that people will think of someone as a useful member of society. You are judged by what you own by people who do not have the authority to judge and not by what you achieved. There is a place, confirmed and assigned, but no matter how hard you try you do not get to change the rules others will apply to you. Should you ever become too careless to forget about it someone will gracefully remind you of it.